Just saw this from my email:
Wow. That damn thing looks like a cigarette lighter.
I think I want one 
Horoscope March 03: Aries
It’s time to get more strategic in terms of your career. Work through your network.
It’s 24 days, 9 hours, 33 minutes and 10 seconds more to go before I could finally go back to the Philippines.
I am currently sitting in my desk right now. Waiting for something, I don’t know. They haven’t given me any new task that I could do, so I purposely slip into the realms of idleness.
Yes, it’s my third week here in Australia. The first week was awful, the second week was so-so, and it looks like the third one would be hell.
Last night, the CEO scolded me when she caught me drinking milk straight from the container. I specially don’t like the way she gets furious because she can really get mad and mostly ignore you for who knows how long. Another one is that I now feel ‘banned’ or restricted from consuming certain products in her home. I mean, she now watches over my back whenever I get something in the fridge or something. I can’t even go jog in their gym threadmill, go to the bathroom, listen to their audio CDs or eat breakfast without worrying if I might have done something to upset her. It really sucks, and the more I think about it, the more I want to go home. My freedom is exploited.
Regarding the project that I was supposed to “help,” well I don’t think they really want me to help at all. Before I jumped into this mess, I was promised to become a part of their team, help develop integral parts of the system, and learn a lot about the overall experience in the process. Well guess what? Two weeks have passed and the only thing that I have done was to test devices, test devices, test devices and yeah… test more devices. Turns out they don’t trust me to do my actual job.
I know, it hurts. But it hurts more when you know you have no one else to talk to, no one to share your thoughts with, because no one gives a damn. Sure they feed me, gives me pocket money, washes my clothes, fetches me to work, takes me to difference places for sightseeing and much more. I thank them for that. But when you realized you’re alone in a foreign land, with no friends and no support, that’s when things get ugly. You realize that you’re staying there only because you have to work, and therefore even petty things such eating yogurt and drinking milk straight from the container could be detrimental to your career, because everything you consume there is not yours.
In other words, they feed me because they expect something greater from me in return, and thus I must behave accordingly. And I’m sickeningly tired, because it’s not worth doing it.
I wish I could easily back out from all this mess, but my return flight is due on March 20. Four painfully scary weeks more to go. I terribly miss my home, friends, family, etc. I just want to go back home.
But alas, I have to be painfully patient.
I was scolded by Lyndell today. She looks real pissed off since last Friday I think. I don’t know why but I feel like the outlet of her frustration. Maybe. Seems she hates it when I drink milk or eat yogurt from the container. Really a petty issue. She’s been ignoring me all day. I don’t know. Still got twenty six days before I get to leave this shit. I don’t know what will become of me in the coming weeks. I have to think about it. I really feel homesick and really want to go home, there’s no one here to talk to. She no longer seems to be interested in me anymore. Not that I care, but seeing that I ‘have’ to depend on her for four more weeks seems like a nightmare. I just don’t know what to do.
Ah, my loose bowel just is getting worse. It’s stinky and just happens to rush me to the comfort room all the time. I think I ate something nasty. Oh well at least I’m not constipated .
There’s something fierce churning in my stomach, and it must be what I ate last night. For some reason I’ve been feeling sick with what I’m eating since yesterday. Now I’m in the toilet for an hour now trying to get rid of the mess inside. Hope I’ll feel better later.
One thing i noticed in summer Australia is that the sun shines longer here. It’s already quarter past six and it still looks like four o’clock. :-/
When I was young I often had strange dreams of preparing for a long trip and then forgetting to pack up everything. When everyone else is ready to go I was scampering around the house figuring out what to bring with me or not. Yeah, those were stressful dreams because I always wind up spoiling the whole outing thing.
Not that it matters though, but I hope it won’t happen to me as I prepare for my big flight tomorrow… 
To tell you the truth, I feel stressed right now. My head is spinning with jumbled thoughts. Just a few hours from now (less than 24 hours!!!), I’ll be flying to Australia. I’m packing up all my things right now, hoping I don’t miss anything important. Gosh, so many things to do! It’s not just clothes and things and equipment that I need to pack up, I also need to prepare my mind because, next week, I’ll be working in Brisbane. Maybe I’ll write some post here to log my adventures.
I don’t know, I’m still not confident enough to ride a plane alone. Yep, thats right. ALONE. I’ve never even been to an airport before!! How’s that for a first time?? Sigh… wish me luck tomorrow. I’m gonna need lots of it.
On a brighter side, Australia, HERE I COME!!!!
heheh.
~Rem
Okay, I think I’m getting used with Evernote after all. I couldn’t install OneNote 2007 on my laptop for some weird reasons. And yeah, I defragmented by iPod classic just a while back and it seemed a little more responsive than usual.. I’m glad ^^
